"I Wish I Knew" - CHRISTMAS APPEAL 2022 This is Dee-Jaye and Jayden's heartbreaking story following the birth, love and loss of their 17 week old son ~ Bronlee William Kotua Tau ~ Donating to this year's Christmas Appeal could ensure a greater reach of Infant Safe Sleep Sessions to assist in the prevention of unnecessary deaths of infants like Bronlee, and to offer support and hope to those deep in the grief journey. Dee-Jaye shares her harrowing story with us; ***“We had the best 17 weeks with Bronlee making memories, and always wish we did so much more…. but you never think your baby is going to pass away. Knowing I wasn’t there for his final moments absolutely destroys me every single day as I constantly wish I was holding him, or even better, may have changed the course of his life.”*** Needing urgent surgery for a personal health issue, Dee-Jaye was admitted into hospital on Friday the 23rd of August. Having slept well and preparing for surgery, she checked in with her partner Jayden to say, ‘Good Morning’ and see how her precious boy, Bronlee slept overnight without her being present. Jayden did not respond to her message. Without warning, Dee-Jaye’s life was about to take a dramatic turn. ***“At 9am the nurse came into my hospital room and told me I had a visitor and I needed to go with her. I did think it was a little odd because visiting hours weren’t until 10am but I followed the nurse despite these thoughts. The nurse then took me into a room where I walked in to see my mum standing there crying and Jayden sitting down crying. I didn’t see Bronlee. Instantly, I felt that maybe he had been hurt or injured. I did not think he had died; I mean I don’t think anyone would think that. But then my mum told me “Dee-Jaye, Bronlee had stopped breathing in his sleep last night, I’m so sorry.”*** No parent should have to experience the heartbreak of wishing to make memories that can never be. Our compassionate grief counsellors are there to help parents from the moment those dreams shatter. |